Monday, June 9, 2008


Why has housework become so dreadful? When did things change? How can I get back into the cleaning mode? I used to enjoy cleaning house. Strange I know, but I loved the feeling of accomplishment at the end of the day when the house looked and smelled crisp and clean. I'm not going to lie, I have never really enjoyed laundry, but now I hate it! I cannot tell you have many times I have taken it to the laundry mat since Abigail has been born. Not because my washer and dryer aren't working, but because I have let it pile up so much that I couldn't possibly ever get it caught up otherwise.

My husband, on the other hand, has become a cleaning machine. He cleans the house, and does laundry! What an amazing husband I have! However, has that made me even more complacent? I don't know, but I don't like it. My job as a wife and mother is to stay home, keep a tidy house, have dinner on the table for my family, and take care of my children. There's another thing, "take care of my children", I have been taking care of them, but when have I really stopped to play with them and see the joy they bring me? I have only been completing 1/4 to 2/4 max of my job that the Lord has blessed me with. Why?

Ross and I were discussing this the other day, but every time we get our house in order and the laundry done, something happens with Abigail. She either has a flare-up or has to spend time at the hospital. Maybe I am looking at this all wrong. Perhaps I should be grateful that during the though times my house is clean. At least that is one less thing I have to worry about. Think about it. How would it be if I needed to take Abbz to the hospital and I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off because I have to wash cloths to be able to pack, or do the dishes because I don't know when I will be home again. My attitude should be, "I'm going to get up today, get my house stuff done so I can enjoy my children and be prepared in case something happens." This was obviously written for me today, and I don't think there is anything else that should be said. I am going to try to take my own advice for the remainder of the week and see how it goes.